OK so I believe everything in the last post is completely reasonable to want, hope and expect from life....
What I know is unreasonable to wish for is the following....
✗ My Dad to never have had the stroke
✗ For my Dad to be able to walk and talk to me
✗ For my Mum to have shown me love, affection and support when I needed it or anytime really
✗ For 90% of my family not to have died around me
✗ For my remaining family to have recognised and understood that there was something wrong with me
✗ For doctors to have diagnosed me with BPD years ago instead of depression then Bipolar for 11 yrs!
✗ Not given into my promiscuity pretty much every time I'm in that situation
✗ To have never go back into abusive relationships even after the damage has been done...I never learn!
✗ Learnt to say 'NO!'
✗ Not to have trusted so many people, even when I say I will never trust anyone again...always do...
✗ To never have given into drugs.. considering when I'm 'normal' I curse the affect of them
✗ Not let other people's decisions and remarks affect me (e.g minor let-downs)
✗ No how to control my manic depressive mood swings
✗ Not said some of the horrible, crazy, strange, mean, dismissive things I've said to people
✗ NOT TO HAVE BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER!!!
I believe this is unresonable either because they were situations out of my control or because I put myself in the situation because of the triggers of my condition...
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