Triggers...

I am sort of in the mind-set that if I can figure out what my 'triggers' are then this could potentially be a healthy way of preventing my self-harm, or downward spirals....

There are a few problems with this:

1. I have know and thought about this for years after being asked about my triggers before, and it hasn't solved anything, so why would it now.

2. What if the triggers are out of your control and there is nothing you can do to stop them.

In answer to myself:

1. Situations, environments and surroundings can change which make you more able to recognise your triggers and possibly ore adapt to deal with them so there is not harm in trying again.

2. You may not be able to control the situations that arise but you can theoretically control the way you deal with them.


My triggers

1. Being let down (main trigger): It could be by a friend, family member, health professional or someone I don't even know, but if I have something planned and set up in my head about something specific that will take place e.g. a meeting, phone call etc and it doesn't happen, then the consequences will result in a situation such a my blog from a couple of days ago.
2. Being alone: I live by myself and I have done for the past 10 years so being alone is something that is generally a normal thing for me, but when I'm feeling needy, helpless, or that feeling of empty loneliness, having no one around, no one to call, no one that understands just makes everything seem a million times worse for me and again, sends me on that downward spiral.

I need to discover my other triggers. I know there are more and I will try to identify them then update this post....